User Profile

Okay... so enough of the slambook stuff. I want to tell more things about myself. I am currently a third year student, struggling? for honors?... I dunno... i seem to prioritize other stuff instead of that I'm practically in love with the computer and would do everything to live with it. Like I said, I could live without most of the world's technologies right now except without the computer... and the internet of course. There are so many wondrous things that you could do with it... *squeeaals* aki hugs the compy. Okay. scratch that. I ♥ sui-chan and koa-chan the most, since they are my bestfriends... I ♥ black. --- as you can see here in my bio XD... about pink, let's just say that I hate it but sometimes im wearing it... you could count that... this month... i wore pink for 1 time... i think when i was already out of I dunno... there... a new topic. fashion. I wear what I like, whenever, wherever, how Ever I like it. XD So, most times, it's hip and urban, well, I dun care. I just love parading around the road with clothes. demo. I can't help but admit it. I am such a clutz anyways. Like I told ebi1, most of the time, I dun care about what other people think about me, for most part, I don't. I love speech and my main forte could be math, or computer or music or drama, or all four. I want to enjoy what I do and if I like it... I should go for it right? Nothing should deny me from experiencing happiness... bwahahahaha. That's the point. I'm random. + selfish = ?????

That's what makes me unique n' special. XD. Compared to most of my peers, I'm not into the wagon thing. Although I admit im into style, I prefer myself to be distinguished from others. I want to be unique and at the same time, I want to be "better?" than others?. Gawd. Aki is a very selfish, yet moi ish also kind. *falls down laughing* Sometimes when I'm killing a friggin fuckin ant... lol. I feel remourse yet i forget it all the time. Well, I'm kinda curious on what could happen after my life, after this life... I'm curious if I'm just an experiment on this world, and I often wondered about lots of things... like the what if this was me and what if that happened or what if I was to choose. Well, I won't be choosing until the right time is given right?

I believe in paradoxical things because that'd be the trend nowadays, the smaller the better XD the bigger the uglier. But some things still stay the same ^___^ anyways Let's just say that I don't believe in the teachings of the christian church although I believe that there is a god. I just don't want to pick in any religon... they have points but religon clouds more often than not, the rational choices. There are lots of irrational things in the bible, like adam and eve, the crossing the sea thing. Miracles that could only be possible if you really have supernatural powers. and the thing is, there is no friggin proof. ^^. but there is a supernatural being who somehow controls the world but i still am doubtful of that. Good moral conduct? Good sense of humanity... when it comes to real life it's just... plain whether you do this or that. You're faced with lots of decisions and unless you make a winning move, then most definitely - you're out. Sins... forgiven? Who cares... why so? Because... repentance, when you repent, then that would mean that you are forgiven right? And when you do that again? You shall be punished... and if you die, there are these three planes that you'd be forced to go to. And to think that everything that happens is said to be the will of God. Christian teaching had degraded women by far so much when before there were priestesses, now there are priests ~ and nuns are only second to them in nature. Is it because of the reason that God is a man? When it wasn't even proven if he has a gender or not? It degrades me... I would rather have philosophies outrun my life than follow that of the rules coming from the disrcriminating gender. :sigh: Why is being holy so needed when you could just be yourself and do your stuff and be happy by yourself? Why devote your life to others so much that you cannot even love yourself anymore? How can you love others when you don't love yourself? Isn't that a contradicting principle?

^^ koi. That's just a glimpse of how am i. in life... Im an idealistic person who only considers what is rational and would do things the easy way without trying to break the rules or cheat.... or cheat when it is allowable or permissible... or cheat when everybody else is cheating. LOL. I AM NO SAINT XD